FORGOTTEN

right now i feel so forgotten....maybe not so much forgotten as moved on from, if that makes any sense at all..Tonight i just feel really heavy hearted, and unwanted and unloved..and damned fat!! lol...I know I know i need to work on me before i can share myself with someone else...but damn i don't think I'll ever be happy in this skin...or it will be a long time before i am....

Some people are just really lucky I think..or they are very good at concealing it...either way they are getting what they want...but I'm just rambling on now..feeling sorry for myself once again. The thing is i know what i need to do..i know it..but it's just the doing it..the being scared of the unknown that freaks me out the most..so what should i choose?? the risk or just stay here being a bottom feeder all my life...help!